Infinity Love

One evil spirit,

destroying our world.

Our world that was you.

You, that belonged to us.

Our time was borrowed,

then without warning stolen.

We are bleeding through our hearts,

no patches to stop the blood-flow.

The hurt will go on.

Down on our knees we shout a prayer:

Dear Father, embrace our children!

Children that are yours now.

Our faith waivers.

No Father would do this.

In our prayer, we know the answer.

The horrific act was the Devil’s work.

God whispers that he gave you wings.

You flew straight into His arms.

We, who still walk this earth,

march to the drum-beat of your memory.

My road to you is marked with teardrops.

You are my daily loss here on earth.

In Heaven you are my infinity love.

There is only one way to carry on.

To believe in Heaven.

You could not be anywhere else.

THANKSGIVING DAY

I inhale the morning stillness,
and exhale the night's dreams.
Left is the now.
I am thankful for life.

Disposable

You pull me in
with desire.
You throw me out
with distaste.
I am a disposable woman.

Regret

Tangled up in regret.
Regret for trying.
Regret for hoping.
Regret for wanting.
Regret for caring.
Regret for giving.
Regret for trusting.
Regret for loving.
I must untangle us.
To not regret you.

Angels

You meet me here.
I meet you now.
We breathe this second.
Our deserted hearts taste the present.
Angels might appear.


Our skin leading the way.
My heart is drumming.
You breathe to my beat.
We break open.
Angels are hearing.


Tears of uncertain liberty,
vibrating with your pulse.
Water drops landing on my chest,
you drinking me.
Angels are gazing.


Our bare naked souls visible,
for us to seize.
Entangled in our mold,
we reach above the ceiling.
Angels are beaming.


Lips traveling uncovered terrain.
Rising love to come undone.
Fingers finding secrets.
Our hearts soar.
Angels are near.


I give you me.
You give me you.
Boundless night of us.
We know freely.
Angels are here.

Alone

My footing loosing ground.
My body shuddering for embrace.
My senses loosing connection.
My heart beats with crippled love.
No sheltered voice in my ear.
No treasured arms around my shoulders.
No long limbs to entangle.
No breathing in sync.
No us who were we.
Only me here.
Only you somewhere.  

Destruction

My scattered pieces gasping for hope.
Shallow breaths for your regret.
Your silence my unwanted answer.
No future in skipping heart beats.
Frozen blood stands still.
You walked,
I stayed.

Fight

I breathe love with a challenge.
I fight through the tears.
I bleed through the limbo.
For love that is worth it.
I stay in quandary.
For us.
That is me,
not you.

New Me

Shredding my past.
Weaving new patterns.
The colors my truth.
A canvas emerging.
My own design.

Now

I surrender to the space.
Stop the hands of time.
Forever an illusion.
We breathe this second.
Our deserted hearts taste the present.
Your hands clench my hips.
I shift towards you.
You meet me here.
I meet you now.

You Show Up

In the silence you appear.
I keep the volume high.
To drown you out.
In the still you surface.
I keep myself busy.
To keep you at a distance.
In the darkness I feel you.
I keep the light on.
To not notice you.
In the quiet, still, and dark bed - 
you are next to me.
I reach out for you.
The ghost of you shudder.
I turn the light on,
press the power on the radio,
and hurry into the shower.
Water soaking my naked skin,
reaching the truth.
You disappeared.

Memory

Eyelids shut tight.
Flashes of you.
Salty water on my tongue.
Fingertips quiver.
Cold tile against my knees.
Head bent in surrender.
My untold prayer.
Quiet walls echoes the truth.
I reach out for you.
The ghost of you shudder.
Shallow breaths for your regret.
Your silence my unwanted answer.
Your deserted love too heavy.
I double over.
The pain follows.
My heart shouts for your return.
My pledge discarded.
No future in skipping heart beats.
Frozen blood stands still.
You walked.
I stayed.

Dead-end

You were a dead-end street.
I missed the sign.

My heart's darkest corner

My heart's darkest corner.
You lay there.
Tucked away to be left alone.
Your shadows dancing for attention.
I tucked you away to live freely.
You, who loved me like no other.
You, who left me hanging mid-air.
I let you see my broken self.
My past too much for you too carry.
You un carried the load,
dumped me at the edge.
Hanging on, scratching my fingers.
To get a grip.
Legs kicking to get higher.
To reach solid ground.
My heart's darkest corner.
You lay there.
Quiet and still.
That's how you'll stay.

Wine drenched heart

Wine drenched heart.
Anesthetic for bruised shadows.
At dawn my fractured self 
lets it be.
By dusk I bleed through.
At nightfall I patch me up again.
Wine drenched heart.
A temporary band-aid. 

Love does not run

It gets tough and messy,
she wants you to stick around.
If you love.
You check in,
see how she is holding up.
If you love.
You give her all you got,
you carry her load.
If you love.
I got trapped in hell,
asked you not to bail.
You took the easy way out.
Love does not run.
I guess it was not love.

Return

I need to come back to me,
before I can return to you.

Intellectual love

Intellectual emotions
sprung from your brain.
My own heart's rhythm,
beating with pain.
Mechanic love,
so far from your heart.
Resting in your arms,
we are always apart.

You and Women

I give you me.
You give me some time, sometimes.
Your attention span is short.
You get bored.
You move on to the next woman.
Until she starts to care,
then she is yesterday.
I wish I was your tomorrow.
I will always be your "in-between".

A Third Eye Watching

A third eye watching.
Secrets dancing on the walls.
All for your pleasure.
All for you using me.
A hidden desire,
behind your selfish love.
I was the object of your satisfaction.
That object has a lost soul.
I am searching for her.
Without a third eye watching.