Fight

I breathe love with a challenge.
I fight through the tears.
I bleed through the limbo.
For love that is worth it.
I stay in quandary.
For us.
That is me,
not you.

New Me

Shredding my past.
Weaving new patterns.
The colors my truth.
A canvas emerging.
My own design.

Now

I surrender to the space.
Stop the hands of time.
Forever an illusion.
We breathe this second.
Our deserted hearts taste the present.
Your hands clench my hips.
I shift towards you.
You meet me here.
I meet you now.

You Show Up

In the silence you appear.
I keep the volume high.
To drown you out.
In the still you surface.
I keep myself busy.
To keep you at a distance.
In the darkness I feel you.
I keep the light on.
To not notice you.
In the quiet, still, and dark bed - 
you are next to me.
I reach out for you.
The ghost of you shudder.
I turn the light on,
press the power on the radio,
and hurry into the shower.
Water soaking my naked skin,
reaching the truth.
You disappeared.